Tonight it is quiet. I am sitting in the dark, with only the beam of my monitor to keep me company. Tonight, as I sit alone, my mind is consumed with some of the actions I have taken, and have claimed they are in the name of justice for Michael Jackson. Originally, I started this blog because I felt there was a lot of information being sent to Jackson fans that was simply untrue. If one was to read one of the first blogs I posted, they would see that their was a lack of emotion to them. This was done purposefully, because my single intent was to get the facts as I saw them, out to the MJ fanbase.
As time moved on, and more blogs were posted, I became friends with many of you. Many of you are my good friends. I have argued incessantly with some of you, but many of those people I respect. For example, MuzikFactory2 and I sit in opposition when it comes to the Estate executors (in particular, John Branca) yet she stood against Howard Mann and FOR the Estate when she felt that Michael's children were being exploited. I cannot tell you how much I respect that. Another example is MJJ777HeTheWo, who I blocked on my Twitter, yet she had the sense to ask to be unblocked. Although we are also in opposition on some issues involving Michael, I now realize how stupid I was to block her. MJJ777HeTheWo, only wants justice for Michael Jackson. In BOTH cases, these individuals were the better person, while I was stuck on stupid, for lack of a better phrase.
Some of you I have fought FOR causes TOGETHER. We have fought to stop the Discovery's autopsy show. We have tried to raise awareness for (the awesome) Joe Vogel's book Man in the Music. We have discussed behind closed doors subjects that we felt we needed to tackle in order for justice for Michael Jackson and to change the face of his legacy.
I have seen others who I was not involved with, accomplish amazing feats for Michael. Michael's name being unveiled at the Gardener Elementary School by Jennifer Marino's group brought me to tears. Charles Thomson's pieces on Michael have been nothing short of enlightening literary pieces that gave me and countless others more inspiration that he could possibly know. Blogs written by Seven, Vindicate MJ, Leslie Hu, Nikki, our new anonymous blogger(s) and others put information out to the public that is absolutely vital and encourage others in the fan base to continue to help promote a positive legacy for Michael Jackson. FB pages like MJ Investigative Research and fan sites like MJJC, MJNA, United4MJLegacy and MJJJusticeProject provide a plethora of information that fans rely on on a daily basis.
All of these people (and others who wish to remain in the background...you know who you are) have been working so diligently in a manner that Michael told us to live by. We use Michael as our example. I try to do the same thing. I try to live by God's word, and by Michael's ethic of compassion and love. However, somewhere along the line, I fell off track.
It's one thing to defend one's self. It's one thing to disprove some of the "facts" (and I use that term loosely...I can't help myself) that some of Michael's "supporters" are putting out there. It's another thing to lose yourself in that fight. And this is what I've done. Instead of keeping Michael Jackson and God in my fight, I lost it in the anger I feel for those who I feel are deliberately misleading the fans.
And so I want to sincerely apologize to those who have witnessed this mess I have created. I want to make it clear that I am in no way stating that I feel I was wrong for stating the facts to disprove some of the actions of some of Michael's so-called supporters. This apology aims at those who I believe ARE trying to make a difference with FACTS that are supported. I am now back on track, and ready to help promote Michael's ethic and legacy in the best way I know how.
6 comments:
Dear Justice... 1st NEVER apologize for being human. That is something that is simply unavoidable. 2nd, take note that even Michael himself unleashed some personal fireworks when the situation had called for it. (Check YouTube for the clips from the 2005 trial where someone mentions the social worker who wanted to take his kids away-- to which he replied: "(Tell her to) go to hell!" and the unheard "finger-pointing and obvious shouting match" between MJ and a reporter/photographer nearby his vehicle who obviously had said something rather ugly. You know... the one where MJ pushes his Mother to the side a bit.) And yes... Michael too was VERY human. The man DID indeed have quite a temper at times. Too many of us out there like to portray Michael as a pure angel, and while for the most part, such may be somewhat true (looking at his charitable heart and so forth), he STILL was very much human. Just as we are. In no way would Michael tolerate the sort of misinformation and misleading actions of some out there claiming to be researchers, and truth-seekers. NO WAY. But, he like us, also know that in the end, they WILL receive their due.
Peace...
Thanks Good Witch...
What I have found is that even with the evidence presented in black and white, clearly some just do not want to see the truth in some cases. I just feel that the time has come to end the public war. I got caught up in the lies, and no matter what, some people will choose to believe those lies.
This particular blog was not an apology to the individuals who continue to lie to MJ fans. And in fact, one of them has a lovely surprise from me, although it will not be done in public. Out of public view, I will still continue to fight for the truth, and try to do anything possible to disprove the misinformation being spread.
Just so they know, although the fight will not be public anymore, I'm still here and remember...when that surprise hits, it was me who did it.
Justice - you are MORE today than before you found your path fettered by the weeds of human emotion. You are more than you would have been had you not walked down that path. The incredible humility of putting the spotlight on things you would like to do differently -- in short looking at your face in the mirror makes you someone I respect more now than ever. Michael taught us that love is the answer but nobody ever said love was easy. How hard it was for him at times to raise to his principles above the mud racking quicksand licking at his legs. The fight to continually pull the truth into clear view amid the swamp of almost invincible ignorance by some is like war - it's exhausting/ debilitating ... there are temptations for hopelessness and anger can infiltrate the best heart and motive. Your work is stellar. Your desire to carry the truth even more golden. The humility of your post is applauded by me. Your work has been a beckon of truth.
For me it's the abrasive 'sandpaper' of my mistakes that allows me to refine and redefine my mission for Michael each morning.
There is a time for every thing and the best time is knowing when to stop and check for progress.
Almost a year ago I found this blog and can safely say it was the only blog around the blogger community that really stand up for MJ estate and the work his executor are trying to do.
It was a fresh walk away from the conspiracy and hate, I stop by and still around,
You wanting to defand Mj truth is natural and I know glove were going to come off and arrangement make to meet at dawn for a showdown, but it take a bigger person to call off such a duel and you did. Say a lot for who you are and your character.
I don't think you should feel bad we standup for what is right even more so for those who we love.
Justice your blog is a blog of truth, and I know if something was to corrected you would do the right thing unlike some.
The stupid look up on this and mock with laughter, but the wise learn from there mistake and make them self a better person. You did the right thing walking away. If they want to be reasonable this and other blog have the truth.
Stand strong we have your back.
Justice, I admire you a great deal and very much appreciate this post and your humility. I admire how you've presented the facts over this last year and how you focused your above comments on what brings us together in the fan community as opposed to what divides us. This speaks to the strength of your character and I applaud you for it. This post has caused me to step back and reflect on how I have been commenting and I apologize for any unwise or overly emotional comments that I have made along the way.
God bless you Justice, and God bless ALL those who support justice for Michael no matter their perspective. At the end of the day, we all want the same thing.
Justice much respect to you!!! There are times we all need that quiet moment to reflect so that we can find true clarity...
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